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12 June 2015 @ 01:39 pm
fuck.
 
 
eazzzzzy e
08 May 2015 @ 12:29 pm
why is it that i just turned 30 and i'm feeling like an angsty teenager more than ever?

everyone and i mean EVERYFUCKINGONE in my LIFE right now is AGAINST ME. i'm over here trying to be an adult and i guess because i am not the best at communicating sometimes, people are getting mad at me, thinking i'm an asshole or an idiot. my brother just called and made me feel like the biggest fucking moron in the world.

the one i work with. that brother. i work with the other one too. he also acts like he hates me.

people that i work with on a daily fucking basis act like they hate me.

ON A DAILY. BASIS.

5/7 days of the week.

if i didn't have kids i would commit suicide. i hope one of you finds this and realizes what it's like to live with anxiety and depression and sometimes not be in control over the things that you want to control and have someone to just snap at you or be demanding or talk to you like a dog. it is abuse. abuse goes above and beyond child abuse, animal abuse, spousal abuse, etc. it is more than just physical and sometimes it is verbal. think before you talk down to someone. because right now, i'm living for my kids. with the way things are going, if i didn't have them, i would either pack up all my shit and move to the desert and become a bum, or fucking blow my brains out.

PLEASE BELIEVE THIS.
 
 
eazzzzzy e
23 May 2009 @ 02:27 pm
i'm about to go get a spray tan. lol. this is going to be funny. i went to a rockabilly fest at star bar last night. i have decided that from now on the soundtrack to my summer is going to consist of only rockabilly, sur alt country, and ramones. i also would really love to be soaking up rays on the beach right now. heaven.

i miss mi madre. she sent me a text today that said "u r my baby girl whom i love". aw. ily momma. i've decided that the only people who matter in my life right now are my family and my husband, and my BFF (that would be mindy). seriously, i've come across a lot of judgement in the past couple of weeks and i need a break from all the negative. i'm not that bad of a person. i just decided a little late what would be the right thing to do. and i know i'll live with it forever, thanks. i know that they won't be plagued by guilt, i will. and who knows, maybe i won't. maybe i'm such a terrible person that i won't think twice.

also, i really don't know what to think when a guy tells me, "if i weren't married i would LOVE to get with you"... uh... creepy or compliment?
 
 
Current Music: the crack - don't stop me
 
 
eazzzzzy e
23 May 2009 @ 01:03 am
fuck you.
i'm through asking for advice. i'm perfectly capable of making my own fucking decisions about MY life, MY body, etc. i am NOT sorry for being confused right now. i AM sorry for not being more careful, but we all make poor decisions and NONE OF US are fucking perfect. so the next fucking time you want to accuse me of something or try to call me a sinner, take a look at your fucking self. put down the bottle. put down the crackpipe. stop getting sodomized by members of the same sex. i don't give a fuck what you do, but if you're gonna verbally attack me, well a sin is a sin is a sin, MOTHERFUCKER.

from the bottom of my dead black heart, FUCK YOU ALL. SINCERELY. to those of you who condemn me, i wish you a lifetime of suffering. i only WISH that for 5 minutes you knew what it was like to walk in my shoes. this especially goes out to all the cunting women out there who think that they know something about something. bitch, i saw you snort a line five minutes ago. don't try to act all high and mighty when i've seen you at your lowest.

like i said, sincerely, baby, get fucked.

yours truly,
your resident cold hearted bitch. but then aren't we all.
 
 
eazzzzzy e
22 May 2009 @ 05:12 pm
I fucking ABHOR morbidly obese, cat owning, WOW-obsessed, mallgothy, pseudo-analytical waxing philosophical twats that use terms like "TROLL". Seriously, I hope you get cornered in a dark alley and maliciously raped and beaten to death by the ghost of O.D.B.

Also, I drop f-bombs like it's nobody's business. If you're so FUCKING offended, then fucking cover your eyes. Also, perhaps you should get off the FUCKING internet because it's a cesspool of raunch and dirty words.

Case closed. And no, you can't comment, fuckhead.
 
 
 
eazzzzzy e
20 May 2009 @ 03:46 pm
are these cute or corny?? i ordered these keds from zappos for work since i can wear like black sneakers and i wanted something different that converse. but i got them now and i'm not sure about em

 
 
eazzzzzy e
I think teenagers are involved in more crashes than any other age group for two painfully obvious reasons. A.) They have just learned to drive, even after you get your driver's license you are still learning and evolving as a driver. The more time you spend on the road the more you will learn. Also B.) They are very easily distracted be it by their friends who are co-riding, or their ipod or sidekick going off. Seriously, texting + driving is not a good idea. There is a reason that it is illegal in many states and counties now. Seriously kids, your damn phone is not worth jeopardizing your life and the lives of others on the road. Keep your eyes on the road, be a defensive driver, and give yourself plenty of time to stop. Don't panic, don't overcorrect. I'm 24 and I'm still not as good of a driver as I'd like to be. I didn't get my license until I was 19 because I was terrified of driving. So many of my friends had gotten in wrecks. So kiddos, don't be stupid, and focus on the road!!
 
 
eazzzzzy e
12 May 2009 @ 08:58 pm

fuck this

 
 
Current Music: replacements - bastards of young
 
 
eazzzzzy e
21 November 2008 @ 08:49 pm
A: What accessories do you wear everyday?
tattoodles! i'm too lazy/broke to accessorize right now

B: What is your beauty routine?
shower like every other day, i wash my face twice daily with just like bar soap, i ordered some proactiv but the fucking dumbass sales rep on the phone didn't even order it apparently, here i've been waiting on it and i called and they were like "um there's nothing on that account". fucking moron.

C: What was the last item of clothing (for yourself) that you purchased?
i bought a dress for my rehearsal dinner for my wedding. it's so fucking cute, it looks like two pieces with like a black sateen high waisted pencil skirt and a built in little skinny black patent belt, and the top buttons up to the neck and is like this cheetah satin material. i need shoes.

D: Do you use a dresser, closet, or both?
dresser. the closet is in my bathroom and just houses shoes.

E: What type of earrings are in your ears right now?
none. my ears are pierced but i think earrings look retarded on me.

F: What type of figure do you have (measurements)?
5'4, 104 lbs, flat stomach, bubble butt, A cup... basically built like a 12 year old boy

G: Do you wear glasses?
sometimes

H: What type of handbag do you carry?
a guinness one i wish i had a new besteyville bag

I: What is your ideal style?
skinny jeans tucked into my boots, a band t, or like a jersey style dress with slouchy boots, or plaid anything. lots of red black and white. i hate bright colors unless it's for accessories. i'm so boring.

J: What is your favorite brand of jeans?
idk i'm wearing these bullhead jeans i got at pacsun that i like because theyre a 00. hahaha

K: Do you wear knee-hi stockings?
no but i like knee high argyle socks

L: Do you *have* to wear matching lingerie?
not really unless i'm planning on getting laid

M: Do you wear makeup?
red lipstick , liquid liner, a crapton of mascara, some peachy blush, and foundation just where i need it. sometimes i get buckwild and wear an ass load of highly pigmented eyeshadow, in case i want to work the Divine look.

N: Do you wear nightgowns?
hahaha when it's just me

O: What outerwear do you put on when going out on a typical winters day?
parka

P: What is your favorite perfume?
harajuku lovers or juicy couture

Q: Is your motto "quality over quantity" when it comes to clothing and accessories?
i like expensive accessories like purses and makeup and shit, but when it comes to clothes ill shop the fuck out of forever 21 and the sales rack hah

R: Do you wear rain boots?
no but i like the ed hardy ones *hides*

S: Do you wear socks or slippers when your feet get cold?
yah i want a pair of those slippers that look like eskimo boots

T: Do you have a set of travel luggage?
yeah brown with gigantic polka dots

U: What is your daily uniform?
whatever the fuck i want to wear, most of the time work clothes a white button down shirt and sta-prest pants hahah

V: If you are married, did you wear a veil with your wedding dress? If not, how did you do your hair?
i'm going to wear a veil when i get married IN FEBRUARY and i want to do my hair long ill probably get xtensions because im growing out a mullet

W: Do you wear a watch?
nope.

X: What item of clothing always makes you feel beautiful?
skinny jeans or anything that shows off my legs, most people don't give a fuck about legs but i have great gams

Y: What is your favorite type of yarn?
weird question

Z: Do you prefer zippers or buttons?
zippers for sure, h & m has the cutest little cropped biker jacket right now with zippers all over
 
 
eazzzzzy e
10 November 2008 @ 04:46 pm
i was thinking about ordering some of her lipstick (kat von d's painted love lipstick) off sephora... has anyone had any luck with these? i just noticed she had some good reds and as much as i hate to say it, her makeup always looks hot so i figured if she had her own line of makeup it's gotta be decent, right??